2/12/2014

I'm having a hard time today understanding why they threw me away..
How do two people who created you turn their back on you and just walk away.
How do they say when you have come to your senses come back to us.
HOw do they say we didn't do this/
He's the father of my children. 
All of them
Micheal and Abigail born May 10, 1974 in Bethany Missouri
Deborah Marie born April 16, 1981
Joseph Lee born    1979
I was never with any man but him.
I obeyed all his rules.
I did everything I could think of to please them.
In the end I just had to get away from them.
I bought everythig I needed.
I found a place behind there back.
I sat down in the living room and I said to him I rented an apartment and I'm moving out.
He was so mad at me.
Why do you want to waist your money hen you can stay here?
I don't know why you want to waist your money.
He insisted on going with me to meet the landlord, and read the lease.
It was lonely but I had to get out of there.
I couldn't give any more babies away.
I didn't want to have any more of his kids.
I couldn't do it.

I was there 3 or 4 months.
He talked me into moving into Grandpa Kerrs old apartment on Raccoon st.
Probably so he could watch me.