Thursday, September 1, 2011

PTSD

My PTSD is through the rook today.   I have had a very rough Augustand it looks like I will not get to move anytime soon.  The woman who lives in the apartment below me called and said she still had bugs so they came and sprayed again but not before we got a letter saying we did not do what we were asked to do for the initial sprayings.     And after I unpacked everything put it in plastic garbage bags and repacked it.  took all my clothes and linens to the laundromat and I decided to leave them in the van for safe keeping...

Now I found out the landlord has rented my duplex out to another family.  He says they needed a place to live short term and they cant let the deplex set empty forever so I have a signed  lease and someone else gets the benefits of that lease, and I am stuck in this apartmentand all I seem to be able to do today is cry.  All I can hear inmy head is he doesnt believe you he thinks your lying and I feel like I am dealing with my dad.   

I dont think I can spend another month here just waitingI just dont think I can do it.